Ishi

It literally takes the breath out of you when someone you know and respect suddenly disappears from the surface of the earth without notice.

A life, so full to bursting point could just turn into thin air in a second when you just stop taking a moment's notice for one freaking moment. I don't understand. He can't be gone. There was so much of him that its not logically possible for death to fully turn him into nothingness. He's got to be somewhere.

But the fact is, he is gone. And I'm lost.

Its almost a joke to think that he would never teach me or anyone else dance again. Because he always does. Every Monday Tuesday and Thursday without fail. And nobody ever feared that something so good would stop because it just can't. There isnt a logical reason to explain it.

The laughter all of us shared. The special way he shakes his butt during warm ups that got all us smiling wryingly from behind. The way he never puts anyone down ever. The magical way he puts my gloom away every Thursday after a long day at school when I have to suffer 4 hours of singcam trapped in a room full of stupid bitches and a lard in human form when I enter his class.

The way he always tell us never to give up.

And its all gone now. and nothing would ever be the same again. Not like it matters anyway. Because my life is alrd on auto pilot mode until i decide what to do next.

where are you???